BuLLeT FoR My vALeNTiNe

act appalled..

2005-10-12T23:01:00.000+08:00

hey.. been a while since i last updated.. yes!! i've bought my very own G400.. at last.. haha.. my lp100 guitar is now at swee lee, under repair.. and i'll be selling it by this friday.. tomorrow i'll be the last day of school.. that's good news cos i've been ditching school for 2 weeks straight.. will be having maths exam and my RTT next week.. i see that nowadays many ppl are mourning over their relationship.. maybe that's why i don't want to, maybe not yet.. i like it better this way.. =)

A Threnody For Modern Romance

2005-09-29T21:25:00.000+08:00

somehow today seems so frustrating.. failed my prac.. arghh.. look on the bright, at least she passed her evaluation test.. im thinking of buying a new guitar.. perhaps an Epiphone SG Special.. plans for tomorrow.. prac in the morning and support Indecisive Minds at outram.. ermm.. we now have one new band member.. heh.. traces of thoughts will rock your socks coming November.. haha.. yeye.. 1st October 2002 was so significant.. =)

confused

2005-09-19T18:34:00.000+08:00

when i reached home, my bro told me someone called me.. i called the number back and was surprised to learn who it was.. in fact very surprised.. try to imagine someone who already lost contact with you for around 2-3 years, call u today out of the blue.. hmm.. wait.. dejavu? i think i've seen how it goes..

As Your Voice Fades..

2005-09-16T11:40:00.000+08:00

busy2 week.. failed today.. the instructor was being so biased/racist.. i'm too lazy to go for school today.. jamming today.. bleargh.. i need a job..

arghhh

2005-09-08T16:36:00.000+08:00

i lost my hp!!!!!!!! i was so careless.. fucking chinese bastard took my phone.. by the time i discovered i left behind my phone, the person already left with it.. may u rot and burn in hell u yellow-skin scum.. now i have to fork out 350 bucks to get a 2nd hand one..

Are You Listening?

2005-09-03T12:40:00.000+08:00

yesterday was fun.. jammed, played pool, cs.. haha.. its raining heavily now.. hopefully it will not spoil today's "fun".. here are the pics.. well i didn't get a G400 cos i think its more worth it buying this LP 100 together with the KORG Toneworks and a new Laney amp.. =)

Forgotten Not Forgiven

2005-08-25T18:54:00.000+08:00

hey hey.. been slacking off this one week holiday.. all i did this week was chill, play pool and download songs.. i'm so into songs by Emery.. and yeah.. jammed yesterday.. boring August.. can't wait for September to come.. things i'm aiming by next week; epiphone G400, KORG AX-10G and N6260.. =) damn bored.. i'd rather go to school to kill time.. but when i'm at school, i'd rather be at home.. may be performing for shitty teacher's day.. maybe playing NUFAN covers because we're not allowed to play 'heavy music'.. and hopefully i can get a slot for Signs of Life(for now) from my friend.. there's already a punk/hardcore band from Toronto with the same now.. arghh.. i've heard a lot of things about u, and they're not good.. all about your 'theory'..

only 7 days to go!!

In your silence

2005-08-08T16:33:00.000+08:00

hey.. i've changed the blog template cos i was kind of sick of it.. i think i'm calling off the deal for Epiphone G400 from someone cos i cannot find the money for the deposit.. haha.. so Les Paul 100 it is.. hopefully the stock won't dry out.. today's Hishamudin's birthday, so happy 19th birthday.. sorry but i'm lazy to go to the class outing at sentosa.. 24 days to go, yeah..

Epiphone LP100 or Ibanez GAX30?

2005-08-06T17:28:00.000+08:00

just got back from seeing my 'future-guitar-to-be'.. i heard that the swee lee store at sims drive was bigger so i went to check i out.. but it was as big as the one at bras basah, with lesser guitars.. so i went to the other store.. i have to choose between 2.. its either the Epiphone Les Paul 100 ($550) or the Ibanez GAX30 ($370).. just can't wait to get my hands on either one.. most probably will be getting the epiphone.. and who knows what i will spend with 2/3 of the money left.. 25 more days to go, aite..

That girl with blonde streaks

2005-07-21T19:08:00.000+08:00

fucking hot weather giving me headaches..
fucking epiphone please wait a while longer..
and there she was playing soccer..
i can't believe u're 20..

Baybeats 2005

2005-07-20T08:57:00.000+08:00

ok.. baybeats 2005 wasn't as great as the past years'.. will be having ELPD test today but i still have no clue about the module.. and yes.. she was in the same bus.. and that means one thing.. =))))))))))))))))

I've been robbed!!

2005-07-06T11:23:00.000+08:00

i can't make a decision to go to school or not.. if i do go, my epdft teacher will pick on me for not finishing my work, claiming that i have the longest hair of all the guys in class, blablabla.. if i don't, i will surely be debarred for exams.. satans of the school broke into my locker.. the things that went missing were my newspaper and engineering maths book.. cb kia.. the class usually spend more time laughing at farhan's mischief.. the 'twins' look a lot like 2 persons i noe.. okok enuf said.. i think i should go to school now, at least to kill time and laugh like crazy..

School life

2005-06-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

i got the mood to update a little due to something funny i saw while i was surfing the net.. i'm not crazy but it made me laugh alone, loudly..

school was fine.. came 1hr late cos i didn't noe lessons were brought forward 1hr earlier.. damn teachers.. they are VERY boring.. they bore u with their stupid broken english and monotonous voice.. so we ended up throwing stuffs across the room and dismantling the drafting table, or whatever they call it..

last saturday, we started out wif 5 people, and by the end of the of the nite, there were about 26.. that's a lot..

poof..

ITE Tampines

2005-06-21T12:17:00.000+08:00

school was ok but still i went home during lunch.. shitty first 2 days of orientation.. stupid games.. friendly and cool classmates.. sham's in my class.. at least there's someone i know.. ok gotta run..

untitled

2005-06-10T11:35:00.000+08:00

nothing much lately.. farn's new place.. CMPB.. blabla.. and i would like to dedicate a special laugh-in-your-face to 3 people.. screw u.. HAHA!

2005-06-01T10:55:00.000+08:00

i'm up early.. i'm bored.. pool anyone?

i tried to defer my NS enlistment but was not able to.. i must go to ite tamp, get a letter and fax it to them.. fucking troublesome.. and the deadline for deferment is in a few days time.. its raining and i'm lazy to go..

letters of regret

2005-05-30T23:12:00.000+08:00

I'm lost for you
With every moment stays true
I'd go as far as to say that I miss you
So far away
I missed my one chance to say
So on to memories of years that passed away

On these walls tell the stories passed of years gone by
Breaking promises
Pictures up in black and white
Holding back all the words I said
I said goodbye
Open wounds, broken hearts
Please stay tonight

So send your letters of regret
It's not the words you never said
Sing to me
Speak softly now
Hearts will beat
that empty sound

tr33haus contender

2005-05-29T22:04:00.000+08:00

what a day.. got back home and looked into the mirror.. red marks all over my chest.. blue-blacked wrist.. good luck to all who's taking malay o level paper tomorrow.. don't suck in malay like i do.. =)

lfc euro champions

2005-05-26T10:33:00.000+08:00

long time yeah.. this was how the last few days was like..lots of finals this month.. watched the FA cup final wif the kids last saturday at farn's place.. kecoh.. i was an arsenal-for-a-day fan cos i so hate man utd.. GSC last sunday.. quite ok.. not as many as expected.. surely didnt enjoy queueing.. jammed on tuesday.. we're still stuck wif our 3rd ori.. im not sure but some ppl are saying that we will perform on the 27th of august.. a few more days after that and i will get almost 'anything' i want.. epiphone, guitar accessories.. car license.. all sponsored.. =)
and as i predicted, sergio mora won the contender championship.. he's fast.. and for god's sake.. LIVERPOOL FC ARE THE CHAMPIONS OF EUROPE.. haha.. silverware!! chelsea brought back the premiership cup.. arsenal, the FA cup.. liverpool, the UCL cup.. and man utd, plastic cup.. hahaha!!! FUCK YOOOOO MAN YOOOOO!!i didn't sleep for the whole of last night because of the match's late finish.. finally i've finished downloading the movie Kingdom of Heaven.. wooooo!! perang!! ya'alah!! ya'alah!!

The European Champions

The Latin Snake

2005-05-17T18:36:00.000+08:00

woke up at 7.30am bcos someone threw something to my head.. and i didn't mind cos what my dad throw was a half-filled cigarette box and some cash.. my saviour.. haha.. i wanna get back to work by thursday.. 2 reasons.. thursday is pay day and i'm bored staying home.. manfredo won yesterday in the contender.. gomes face was a wreck after the fight, a quarter of his face blue-black and he can't even open his right eye.. woo.. and the ska fest this saturday, tr33haus kids, all go down lah.. once in a blue moon siak GSC turon.. bleargh..

2005-05-13T18:31:00.000+08:00

not much anyway.. jammed just now.. our 2nd original is coming great, thanx to mr. vocalist/guitarist.. but i have no idea what the title is.. the new layout i created was a mess so i'll just stick with this dull one yeah.. and the this blog song rawks!! \m/ and yesterday chilled at tr33haus.. fullhouse.. birthday bashings.. ouch.. bye..

p.s. u suck at prank calls.. don't quit your day job..

2005-05-10T12:59:00.000+08:00

i'm not being sarcastic or wat.. but if you're responsible for the prank calls, please fucking cut it out.. i think i noe who you are, quit it.. i don't mess with your life and you don't mess with mine.. and please grow up, prank calls are for kids.. and don't be stupid.. who would believe a girl making a guy's voice? 3 words for ya, GET A LIFE.. well2.. jammed yesterday and got news that the auditions for the substation gig is this sunday.. omfg.. still stuck on what songs to play.. 2 originals done and 1 more to come.. we're so unprepared and bound not to get the slot.. yeah!!

2005-05-04T22:48:00.000+08:00

hey.. finally im feeling well today.. had been sick since last tuesday.. and i have not smoked for than a week.. a great achievement ey? should i quit? nah.. work has been great and i received my pay just now.. and i think i'll turn 19 in a about an hour's time but i'm not looking forward to it.. there's no difference between 18 and 19.. and yeah.. liverpool got into the UCL finals.. rawk on..

2005-04-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

haaaaaaaa....... my leg is aching.. all thanx to yesterday's game.. the field at 3M was occupied so last resort, play at depot.. padang baik punyoh.. got lalangs (u can play hide and seek), swimming pool, snakes.. the gig was at first boring, cos the bands are all lame, literally.. the fun starts when shafiq's band and comic strip played.. woohoo..

plans this coming week........
work and work and work..
go to ITE tamp for donnoe what..
fariq birth/bashday..
lee kwong seng..

2005-04-22T22:56:00.000+08:00

finally.. confirmed tr33haus fc will have a match against azri's boon lay team tomorrow.. work was great today.. farhan just joined today.. and i'm coping well wif the peeps there.. nice and kecoh.. and most probably will be going to the gig at marsiling cc tomorrow.. i will get my pay right before my birthday.. =) and guys, i think i'll be sick on my birthday, so i'm not chilling.. ok bye..

"u guys are great.. i just like ur MCR stuffs.. i gotta go.. bye.."

2005-04-19T14:30:00.000+08:00

hey.. well we did jam last sunday.. a great session too.. plans for this week.. soccer against azri and his boon lay team, jam and maybe tr33haus contender again.. well, not much to update yeah..

watch out, pussy..

2005-04-17T00:45:00.000+08:00

ouch ouch ouch! i think my right hand now salah urat.. thanx afys.. ccb!!! how to jam tomorroW!!

ok now i have no mood as i just fought wif my sister while writing this entry.. fuck lah.. then my dad interfered and scold the hell out of me, instead of her..

fucking off....

2005-04-13T10:58:00.000+08:00

i can tell that its going to rain anytime.. i hate rainy days.. was slacking at tr33haus yesterday wif farhan and zak when it rained heavily.. my slipper snapped and i almost fall.. haha.. so we slack at a carpark nearby, of all places.. talked cock and was joined by bub.. after tonnes of ghost stories, i was kinda freaked out to go home.. cos there's something at the playground near my block as many people know it.. then bub teached us this new trick to make me semi-unconcious.. after he did the trick, my thoughts blacked out.. weak + unconcious + high + less self-control.. i couldn't see anything when i opened my eyes.. and they told me i shouted and reacted stupidly right after i was knocked out.. but quite funny.. when i woke up, it was so difficult for me to move my body.. but still i tried many times.. like fun hor.. haha..

watched the milan match just now.. it was a great game until the Inter fans launched flares to the field, which hit the goalkeeper.. he was pretty much hurt and the penalty area was set ablaze.. it happened twice before the referee finally decided to stop the match.. just hope that liverpool will advance after tonight's match.. KERM ON YOU REDS!!

haaaaaa

2005-04-10T15:57:00.000+08:00

i would rate yesterday as a not-so-good day.. went jamming @ garage.. the room was very2 small.. equipments were of good brands but not of good condition.. so i had a bad session yesterday.. and i almost got into big trouble yesterday outside hyatt hotel.. got one from this big group of gangsters find fault wif me.. luckily one of them was my old friend and another one is my elder cousin..

so today back to jamming @ Lee Kwong Seng yeah? a make up session for yesterday's disaster.. and i don't know why the new msn is giving me headaches.. the fonts are all different and u can type a message at ur display name.. wtf.. ok im gone..

am i wrong?

2005-04-08T09:47:00.000+08:00

went for the job interview yesterday and we got the job.. starting next monday.. im going to waste my first week pay and buy that 'skull' epiphone at swee lee on the consecutive week.. knn.. today maybe just slack at tr33haus like every friday.. and tomorrow jamming!!! i wanna play 'give up' by silverstein.. but i havent tangkap the song full.. this new blog song is from Brand New entitled 'Am I Wrong?' i keep changing blog songs as it reflects my mood.. and im in the worst mood yet, so dont fucking mess wif me..

GooDByE, Lay tHe bLaMe oN LucK..

2005-04-07T12:51:00.000+08:00

yeah.. lfc won..

im done wif the tr33haus kids blog..

i want a fucking epiphone.. *jealous*

i need to rush for an interview now..

bye..

lfc vs juve

2005-04-06T02:23:00.000+08:00

about 5 minutes till the big match between lfc and juventus starts.. i just hope liverpool wins this one.. went jamming last monday.. finally new songs.. =) the vids are so dark.. nothing much just now.. just follow farhan to sell his hp.. he's getting epiphone later on.. damn!! im almost done wif the new tr33haus blog layout.. just one more section.. ok the match's starting.. bye2..

retribution shall be mine.....

2005-04-04T00:09:00.000+08:00

i know..
you know..

mcr

2005-04-03T18:39:00.000+08:00

watched the 'my chemical romance' special on mtv just now.. awesome.. frank, the guitarist was one of the craziest i ever saw.. he lied down and spin his body while playing.. nice live songs.. and yeah.. lfc won though only 1-0.. slacking later, gotta have an acoustic session.. and we'll be jamming tomorrow yeah.. hopefully haziq will not turn us down again.. ok gtg..

demoliton lovers..

2005-04-03T00:41:00.000+08:00

went to town just now.. as usual wif the tr33haus kids.. nothing much.. just slack2 and i bought new specs.. but the lens no degree.. i need to make one as soon bcos cannot seem to see anything.. its not fun to be potek.. haha..

went to OCH last friday.. even though i didn't see as much as the rest did, i was totally freaked out.. what do u expect? ghosts are my worst phobia.. that will be last time i'm paying the ghosts a visit.. heh..

im in love wif this song.. and i'm so fucking happy i noe how to play it.. i noe lah the song not that hard.. hmph.. the lyrics are good too.. =)

2005-04-01T01:57:00.000+08:00

happiness won't last..
i'm feeling lost + angry + emoish..

call me stupid.. call me whatever u want.. maybe i just need time.. why does these feelings have to come back to haunt me when i almost get over it?

and the fucking second problem is freshcut fuckers.. im not dissing skinheads.. but u.. u're in the scene for only 3-4 months.. u brag about ur mates.. act like u are mr. know-it-all.. this is what he says to me..
"kau rudies kan? kau kenal rudeboy name din tinggal pasir ris? ape lah kau tak kenal.. kalau kau nak kenal2 ngan dak2 rudies, kau turon penin banyak.. asal kau tak dress up? takde pride?"
LIKE WTF.. firstly, must i noe every fucking rudie in singapore? most are fucking poseurs and the number is rapidly increasing since early last year.. kenal2 ngan dak2 rudies? please lah.. i've been in the scene long enuf to noe that u're a wanker.. so wat if i dont dress up anymore? its not what u wear, its what u are.. i like the way i am now.. after 3 years, u're the first newbie that get on my nerves.. kau pikir ape? gambar rudeboy posing nak skank kat bawah block tu sume style? mcm kental kau tau tak.. memalukan.. tu sume ke real rudies?
some more want to fight with me.. but then use other ppl's name.. wtf.. if he got a problem wif me, he should be the one dealing wif me.. not his friends.. like my mate always say, "lu mau, gua pon mau.."

p.s. this is not called matrepism, im just standing up for myself..

2005-03-31T13:07:00.000+08:00

pheew.. finally finished making this new layout.. im just sick of the previous template, and i have no idea about a new one.. resulting to this simple one.. heh.. i want a fucking epiphone!!!!!!! later going to check it out at swee lee.. just drool at the guitars.. the price mostly 4 digits.. arghh.. i wanna apply to work at fariq's place.. so that i can buy epiphone and more stuffs.. i don't care about amps bcos my sis already owns one.. it seems like its going to rain anytime soon.. rainy days suck.. do tag me cos its fucking fresh and empty.. =)

haaaaaaa

2005-03-28T23:15:00.000+08:00

ok im bored.. i wanna download photoshop cos i wanna edit a lot of pics.. my internet connection is fucked up.. everything seems lagging since my dad changed the scv box to the starhub digital cable.. arghhhh.. just slacked at farhan's place just now.. recored some songs.. learn new songs.. yeah.. might as well learn new songs now.. bye2..

jamming pics are up..

2005-03-28T13:42:00.000+08:00

i'm so stressed cos no more cigs.. haha.. yesterday's jamming session was a lethargic one.. everyone seems tired.. maybe going to farhan's place later on to learn some new songs.. oh yeah.. its been a long time since i uploaded some pics here.. so here it goes.. pics courtesy of kyn the camerawoman.. haha..

the tr33haus kids.. actually wee haven't decide a name for our band yet..

Haziq

Farhan

Hakem

Fariq

new songs pls..

2005-03-27T11:34:00.000+08:00

i've changed my front blog pic.. actually that pic not that clear, but i blurred it.. heh.. actually wanna edit but my comp no more photoshop already.. thats the pic that i leapt off the drums.. haha.. jamming again today.. haiyoh.. today wil be the third time this week i think.. went to town yesterday.. at first only me and babe.. played pool at lucky plaza.. then went to far east to check out some stuffs.. joined by fariq.. ate there.. fuck the shop at heeren which sell ben shermans.. no wonder ur store is often empty.. u don't fucking noe how to understand the customers.. i wanna see u fucking eat that shirt first.. haha.. after that we're joined by haziq, fareez and afys.. slacked at esplanade beside the shitty indie gig.. blablabla.. ok.. that's about it..

like father like son..

2005-03-26T02:19:00.000+08:00

nothing to do now so might as well update yeah.. did a stupid mistake yesterday.. i wish i can delete back.. itchy hands.. i change my mind now.. slacked at tr33haus wif farhan while the rest watched soccer at the wdl stadium.. mcm boring gitu eh s-league.. thanx for the hot n spicy chicken.. haha.. later i buy amp put at ur new house at pasir ris.. hee.. now not in good terms wif my dad.. again.. often quarrel at least once every 2 weeks.. my mum always the one to stop us fighting.. kinda pity her lah.. haha.. don't know wats the plan for today.. hmm.. siak tol.. the jamming videos not as clear as the previous one.. but style lah the "only one" vid..

well2.. wasn't i right all along? so predictable.. =)
i'm okay..

siak..

2005-03-25T09:59:00.000+08:00

why am i always waking up so early? jammed 1 1/2 hours yesterday but it was like only 1 hour.. covered only 1 new song and 4 regulars.. all of us slacked yesterday.. i kept playing wrongly.. the only stupid thing i did was leaping off from the drum set while playing.. hopefully that part caught on cam.. haha.. slacked at tr33haus at night.. as usual.. talk2.. laugh2.. casino ada.. semua ada.. everyone is teaching me a new word.. "FORGET"

greatest fall of all time

2005-03-24T10:25:00.000+08:00

hey!! im back!!!!!! haha.. as lame as ever.. finally im back in the internet world.. haha.. im falling behind.. get to know a lot of things.. haha.. after so many days, of cos i'll crap more in this entry yeah? ok.. the tr33hauskids formed a band.. finally.. im not sure of what genre we're in for, but its like this.. emocore + emopunk + screamo.. yes.. there are now 4 of us.. ziq on drums and irritating smiles.. fariq on bass and back up vocals.. me on lead guitar and facial expressions.. farhan on rhythmic guitar and vocals.. and now i noe that farhan can actually sing.. haha.. we've got videos on vcd.. hehe.. cool.. probably jamming later.. but we can't live wif only 5 songs!! 4 covers and 1 original.. more songs k? so much for fun.. will be getting back to school in june or july.. and i got my first choice of school.. and the tr33haus chalet pics.. got one wif the a bloodied head on a tree.. creepy.. ok.. got no more to say.. later..

2005-03-15T22:51:00.000+08:00

hey guys.. will not be updating that often as im having trouble wif my internet connection.. im now at aish's place updating.. keep on tagging yeah.. take care y'all..

lovers and liars

2005-03-14T16:24:00.000+08:00

fuck.. i've fallen sick.. i hate it when this happen.. it makes me feel weaker, after yesterday.. i had 14 hours of sleep yesterday nite.. i woke up wif this pain on my neck.. my throat hurts and i'm coughing a lot.. running nose..

i'm sorry for wat i've said.. i've already told u.. its all out of jealousy and anger.. scold me all u want.. i know i'm wrong.. it still hurts.. i know u hate our past..

maybe just slacking later wif babe nearby or at aish's place.. now waiting for babe's call.. and anyone who knows my hp no. should not bother calling me.. it has been terminated..

"Don't hold it against me. I've already said i'm sorry.."
yes, this is my new blog song.. Lovers & Liars by Matchbook Romance..

regret

2005-03-13T18:02:00.000+08:00

i hate myself.. and all the things i've said and done.. yes call me a 2 faced bastard.. i noe i am.. i noe i'm wrong..

sleepy..

2005-03-13T15:22:00.000+08:00

im feeling so lethargic.. so here's how yesterday goes.. there are i think about 18 of us.. hmm.. me, yan, alif, adi, fattah, fareez, farhan, kojack, his gf, babe, haiqal, zak, syuk, phique, shahar, khaliq, fariq, afys.. while some of the kids set up the bbq pit, beat up each other one by one in the bedroom.. big havoc! then they went swimming.. i just laid in bed as i was so sleepy and in no mood.. twice! had our barbeque.. then i and 4 others played pool.. blabla.. then they kids got drunk.. i didn't even take one sip.. =) wasn't in the mood for that either.. tr33haus + booze = chalet terbalik.. haha.. on the menu was 12 tiger beer bottles, 2 guiness, 1 heaven hill and 1 gordon.. just hang around after that.. watch soccer at fullmoon.. played cards.. watched entity.. dah naik jelak tgk tu bende.. i and syuk was the only ones who slept downstairs.. as the bedroom was too cold.. somemore the bedroom packed.. they laughed crazily every 5 seconds.. from 4 till 6.. then they were tired and slept.. i slept only at 6 bcos of the noise from the bedroom and syuk snoring.. heh.. hey.. that's all.. i wanna rest..

tr33haus chalet

2005-03-12T00:42:00.000+08:00

just got back from chilling at tr33haus.. i just remembered how to do fishing reel thingy.. =) tried it out just now and worked on most of the kids.. blabla.. will be going to chalet later in the afternoon.. its a a tr33haus chalet wif some guests.. only 2day 1nite.. i dont noe whether to drink or not.. hmm.. should i? see first lah wats available.. =)

and to that someone.. i have no idea wat u're saying.. i might have 'terlepas ckp' or wat.. i noe i did wrong.. hate me all u want, but i wont do the same.. =)

Entity..

2005-03-11T10:47:00.000+08:00

siak uh.. yesterday watched 'entity' at babe's house.. quite scary siak.. its like a documentary at indonesia.. where they test people's iman.. can see ghost and all.. caught on tape.. there were six of us watching.. me, haiqal, zieg, farhan, babe and shira.. some part quite funny, when the person was fucking scared and yelled for help when he/she saw the ghost.. but most like kurang ajar nye seram.. takde kasi chance tol.. like aleh2 the figure approaching or in front/behind the person.. haha.. its still haunting.. like can imagine2 like dat.. maybe babe coming over later to slack.. just now i had the strangest of dream.. hmm.. changed my blog song as i just realised its on farhan's blog too.. this song is from A Static Lullaby, entitled 'The Shooting Star That Destroyed Us All'.. i like some parts of the lyrics..

"Let me walk on high wire of rusty nails
While barefoot shedding the flesh of our existence"

"The more I try
The more I lose
But today
Will you remember me ?"

i miss you..

2005-03-10T18:39:00.000+08:00

wake up at 1pm today.. haha.. im glad that LFC made it!! yeah!! 6-2 aggregate.. they are bound to be the european champions!! just sat on the sofa, eat and watch tv as i have no mood to do anything else.. now have to bathe and rush to farhan's house.. to burn some cds and watch a ghost documentary.. so long nvr watch horror.. last tyme? shutter.. hmph..

i fall asleep tonight as that brings me closer to you..

2005-03-10T01:50:00.000+08:00

now almost 2 and i'm still not in bed.. just now went to causeway point wif babe.. then went back my place to slack and watch dvd.. blablabla.. played soccer near my place wif the kids.. came back home around 10.30 and..... hmm.. oh yeah.. i've updated my last entry for my LJ as im not going to use it anymore.. im fucking pissed that the lfc champions league game is not shown on tv.. siak tol.. and i've changed my blog song.. nice song entitled "Helena".. heh..

shot me in the head and walked away

2005-03-08T23:09:00.000+08:00

hey there.. just got back.. babe came to my house around 12 to slack, eat and watch kungfu hustle.. haha.. kesian die lom tgk.. i watched 3-4 times already.. heh.. went out around 6.15 to buy cig from hasri.. off to babe house, to eat again.. met up wif bub and ajis to slack in front of evergreen sec as bub need help wif his QD.. as usual slack.. that's wat im good at now.. ate at north plaza and slack, again.. slack eat slack eat.. haha.. got to know abt something from someone.. hmm.. =) and the prank calls are driving me crazy.. the first call, the girl said that my gf ugly lah.. wat lah.. 2nd and 3rd, the same person again called saying that she got into an accident and said she's ugly again.. fuck siak.. and just a few days back, someone pretended to be somebody else and asked about my results.. i just scolded her for not telling who she is.. she told me, and i know her.. i just put down after telling that i did not do well.. irritating siak.. eh sial uh!! i misplaced my digicam, and now my dad wants it.. mampos.. now i should get ready for another round wif my dad.. wakakaka..

The Ghost of You

2005-03-08T01:39:00.000+08:00

finally the blog song can be heard!! cb kia.. haha.. i only can use the comp late at nite now, as my sis conquer the comp most of the time.. and guess wat? i slept at 5.30am yesterday.. siak.. couldn't sleep.. just laid in bed and listen to some songs.. then farhan woke me up 9+.. kiwak.. not enuf rest.. followed him go NYP to appeal for some courses.. fariq tagged along there and then go back admiralty to eat and chill.. joined by babe.. fariq left for his class.. went to shahar's place.. just slack and they kejekan my hair.. heh.. so bored so i and babe went over to my place to eat and slack, again.. went to causeway point.. ade 2 bas merah kat luar.. mesti ade gado besar.. blablabla.. chill for a while wif some skinheads.. then back to shahar's house again.. haha..

this may be the last time i'm thinking about it.. this is not a song.. this is not one of those fucking love poems.. not the ones wif perfect english and emoish shyt.. maybe it is.. but its just something i wanna say.. something i wanna let go and hope it won't be back haunting me.. =)

Are promises meant to be broken?
Was my heart meant to be broken?
I leave the answer to you
All i know is that i have always been true

We bragged that we'd love each other forever
We promised we would die together
But now it all doesn't matter
Maybe its just something to make me feel better

Your presence brought me joy and happiness
Your absence made me suffer of blindness
I'm not trying to say you shouldn't have come
You shouldn't have gone

I missed the days u said "i love you"
Even more the days u said "i really need you"
I don't know about you
But the special person in my heart is still you

My life still have to move on
But its hard, seeing you've moved on
Maybe i'll find someone new
But she'll never be as great as you

My tears may have run dry
We might have waved goodbye
The only last thing i can say to you
"Good luck with someone new"

New Layout

2005-03-07T03:21:00.000+08:00

almost 3.30 already and i still cannot sleep!! maybe bcos i took a nap in the afternoon.. so i managed to get a new layout.. its plain and blank.. so be it.. heh.. yesterday was fine.. went jamming at rhythm masala.. the place was nice but the equipment sucks.. the amp sucks.. the mic sucks.. zak came 20 mins late.. star karat.. tak bayar plak tu.. sial nye botak.. wakakaka.. ate at chong pang then went home cos there's no where to go.. doze off and wake up just in time for the san miguel asian 9ball tour semis and final.. later maybe following farhan to NYP.. not so sure what he's going to do there but i just accompany lah.. haha.. and how stupid of me.. i now then realise that my birthday this year will be 05.05.05.. style uh eh.. maybe i should jump to bed now and switch on the TV.. thats the only way i can fall asleep.. bye..

zzZZzz

2005-03-06T10:17:00.000+08:00

zzZZzz.. still sleepy as aish wake me up early in the morning.. now i have to download a few songs bcos later wanna jam.. siang plak tu!! cos he need to see his friends after that.. met babe at his house yesterday and went to aish house to slack and wait for him to get dressed.. played pool at lucky.. ok lah.. i won all.. haha.. then when going down the escalator, got 2 girls walk past me.. i just buat bodo, but then one of them say "hakem?" i turned to see but i have no clue who they are.. haha..so i just smiled back and walk away.. ate in the evening.. then farhan and his band at TnT.. watch them jam.. i and aish like semangat see them jam so we're jamming today.. =) i've got a word from farhan that az says he saw "them".. heh.. let it be lah.. ok lorh.. now must upload some songs to my fone then give ziq and zak a wake up call.. bye2..

O Level Results

2005-03-01T11:17:00.000+08:00

hey there.. heh.. last sunday went to the hardcore fiesta 2005.. ok lah.. at first like boring.. then towards the night was great.. the crowd was great.. recover was simply good.. and yesterday i got my o level results.. haha.. i could not believe i got b3 for english, as i did not even finish my summary.. but still i cannot make it to polytechnic.. i was the happiest in the hall who did not make it.. haha.. when my form teacher called my name, i walked towards her.. from far i already shout, "fail right cher?" she replied,"yalah.. sleep somemore.. skip school somemore.. u never even study rite?!" haha.. just as soon i sat on the chair, i took my results and went off.. haha.. and i noe where to move on from here.. =) i can try my luck on poly courses but i don't want to..

ok dat's all for now..

Tr33haus VS Blue Court

2005-02-25T14:16:00.000+08:00

so much for espresso wanting a rematch.. tomorrow we will have to face this team called blue court which is far a lot tougher.. they've won tournaments.. and we won red cards.. but who cares if we lose.. we don't play to win.. we just do it to have fun and bring all the kids together.. how boring can single life be? heh.. very.. how could i be so stupid? haiyah.. o level results coming out on monday, and i noe im so gonna fail.. my science surely will get F9.. if there were worst grades, im sure i'll get G10 or H11.. i've stopped working for while.. but i really need a lot of cash larh.. cb.. yesterday after playing soccer near my place, they were talking about taking their licenses right after their birthday.. man.. i should too.. but if only i saved my money and not throw it all away to have fun.. cigs, liquor and doink.. makes me broke.. hopefully can complete before september.. as by that time, my dad promise me a lot of cash.. then i can get my dream bike.. weeeeeee.......

Broken Promise Ring

2005-02-24T13:23:00.000+08:00

this song is true..

The Ataris - Broken Promise Ring

I really wanna call you
But i know that it's not right
I probably shouldn't tell you
But i dreamt of you last night

I guess i'm not prepared to say
"Goodbye, so long, i won't be seeing you again"
Until next time that he goes away

You told me that you loved me
I started breaking down those walls
I really start to trust you
But you set me up to take the fall

I guess i'm not prepared to say
"Goodbye, so long, i won't be seeing you again"
Until next time that he goes away

I guess that i'm wrong for falling in love
But you're still the one that i'm dreaming of
I guess that it's you i want to hold on to
But you're holding on to someone else

Gone

2005-02-21T19:26:00.000+08:00

me and shaq are officially over.. but i'm still waiting for another chance.. just trust me.. i said sorry to john, not finding fault wif him.. its the least i can do to stop u from thinking i hate him.. i'm not expressing my weaker side here.. its all in my LJ, where only trusted pals could noe.. i would like to say thanx to everyone who consoled me.. too many to mention.. you guys are great.. thanx for making me stronger when i'm very weak to get back up.. thanx for listening to my story.. just pray for me so i can get what i want.. what goes around comes around.. the innocent will eventually be blessed.. i noe i did nothing wrong.. i always love her throughout the relationship.. i nvr wanted to cheat or use her.. please.. think carefully.. -yours truly, hakem..

i'm still waiting..
hakem forever <3 shaq..

Matchbook Romance - Promise

What would you say if I asked you not to go
To forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
Would you take my hand and never let me go
Promise me you'll never let me go

And now the stars aren't out tonight,
But neither are we to look up at them
Why does hello feel like goodbye?
These memories can't replace,
These wishes I wished and dreams I chased
Take this broken heart and make it right

I feel like I lost everything when you're gone
Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
I thought you should know,
You're not making this easy

this song truly explain how i feel.. even the song that makes us happy being together now makes me very sad to listen to.. Sunshine Reggae.. it was a song that we both appreciate and the song kept us close together..

2005-02-20T10:25:00.000+08:00

im not letting it go here.. i want to let it go but i dont want anyone to know.. i think its about time i use my livejournal..

--please.. i know we can work things out..--

2005-02-16T11:42:00.000+08:00

extreme anger.. that's how i can describe the first half of today.. firstly, im irked by my sister.. i usually keep the mmc reader next to the monitor.. but today its gone.. when i needed it the most!!! she said she have no idea where she placed it.. fuck siak.. if she brought it for her schoolwork just say lah!! that thing is to be kept there!! i didnt even borrow it to anyone as my dad, her and myself need it to update stuff on our hp.. im fucking pissed whether she misplaced it or brought it w/o permission.. even if she had my permission, i wont let her.. her room is now in a total mess, thanx to me.. i was finding the stupid gadget wat.. cb!! secondly, im angry about my job.. i'd rather work than stay at home.. but that bastard keep telling me "you're off for the rest of the week".. like wtf!! last week off 4 days.. and this week 3.. that's like throwing away $350!! lucky he's the one paying me, that's why i kept quiet.. and the last thing that angers me is relationship problems.. we just cant seem to get it right.. i noe u wanna have things ur way, but wat about me? u said i nvr ever give in, but everytime im the one who closed one eye and move on.. isnt that giving in? i do appreciate u but u must try to convince me that i'm safe wif u, then u can go on wif those things u said.. TRUST.. i tried but u broke it.. although we've been together for 3 mths, we have quarelled so many times like we were together for 3 years.. i love u.. but u must try to understand me.. earn ur trust.. i'm sorry, but i just cant keep it to myself.. i hope u will understand and be like u used to..

2005-02-11T12:05:00.000+08:00

have not been updating cos i was busy wif work.. im off today so might as well update and share some pics.. went to sentosa yesterday wif some last minute arrangements.. it was six of us at first until one of them went off early.. the shuttle bus queue was from the interchange itself to the mrt station escalator.. so we took a cab.. the island was infested by batmans.. these banglas came wif nice shirt and smart pants.. the next second u can see them diving into the water in their undies.. gross.. the beach and monorail was packed.. overall it was fun.. =) here are some pics..

nice couple? babe and zieg smoking underwater.. heh..

me and shaq.. my eyes small as ever..

shaq and fara..

don't mind zieg showing that stupid face..

2005-01-24T19:54:00.000+08:00

wat a day.. first day of work.. keje rilek habes.. just sit beside the driver.. deliver carton and collect boxes.. quite berat lah.. covered places like bukit panjang, sembawang, toa payoh.. the guys working wif me all much older.. 40+ or 50+.. haha.. went to a lot of condos and bungalows.. when lunch time eat for 20 mins.. and then sleep for 1 1/2 hour at sembawang park.. haha.. lepak habes.. this is wat i like.. heh.. hopefully doing delivery again tomorrow.. if store, boring siak.. k that's all..

2005-01-22T13:08:00.000+08:00

yesterday was hari raya haji.. so the boring.. i slept the afternoon through.. must go prayer after prayer.. leceh siak.. i'll be starting work this coming monday.. working at KC Dat where my uncle is the supervisor.. ok larr.. gd pay and work office hours only.. im gonna pay my debts, buy my stuffs and some stuffs for her and im gonna save up money for taking driving license.. nyeh.. sorry khoi, as this means im not going for the interview this coming monday.. if got anymore vacancy i'll ask u to come k.. k that's about it..

2005-01-22T13:00:00.000+08:00

haha